| Mom: | Boob. LOLOL. |
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| Me: | ...LOLOL |
Textual Sensations
A place for all those squirmy words that struggle for space in my mind to get out.
In the Shoebox
Self-awareness is great. I can sit and pick my psyche apart and understand why I do the things I do. At the same time, I also need a third party to help me understand what truly lies beneath all the factors that affect me and have influenced me.
A year ago I wrote on my fear of rejection. Yes, it certainly still plays a part in my life, but I have realized (with help) what the core issue of my heart is.
I am the problem.
No matter how much I try to reassure myself, or others reassure me, I have (and possibly will always have) a deep, hidden belief that I am simply not good enough. Not good enough in relationships (friendships), in academics, in life, etc., etc.
Perhaps I blame myself for what has gone wrong in my family, although I know (key word “know” vs “believe”) that I am not the cause or enabler of the issues. Perhaps I think that I am not a “normal” friend, reflecting the cultural norms of relationships (hanging out, shopping, making food, whatever).
In understanding that I believe I am not good enough however, enables me to attempt to move past it. The first step is to be aware. Now I am aware.
I am not the problem. I am not abnormal. It is not me.
The One who created the universe loves me, and He thinks that I am plenty good.
You have been educated.
Introverts, in contrast, may have strong social skills and enjoy parties and business meetings, but after a while wish they were home in their pajamas. They prefer to devote their social energies to close friends, colleagues, and family. They listen more than they talk, think before they speak, and often feel as if they express themselves better in writing than in conversation. They tend to dislike conflict. Many have a horror of small talk, but enjoy deep discussions.
Susan Cain, Quiet (via obliteratedheart)
(Source: accountedfor, via obliteratedheart)
Goals for the summer
1. Swim regularly.
1-2 times a week. It’s a start.
Also one of the few exercises that doesn’t bore me.
2. Draw.
Haven’t picked up a pencil in so long. Hopefully my skills haven’t died on me.
3. Write.
I love writing, but haven’t done much. Poetry and children’s fiction, here I come!
4. Read.
Enrich my mind and spirit by reading spirituality books, and my imagination by reading some good fiction.
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Dear Photograph, by Taylor Jones
The truth…hurts.
The writer must have a good imagination to begin with, but the imagination has to be muscular, which means it must be exercised in a disciplined way, day in and day out, by writing, failing, succeeding and revising.
Stephen King (via ilovereadingandwriting)
(Source: writersdigest.com, via ilovereadingandwriting)
